Growth Season Thoughts

This is essentially the first real 'growth season' I've had. And I say that not because I'm not proud of how far I've come in the past, but this is my first real period where my focus has been solely on growing instead of last time where I chose a show with a date and decided to do that show as a goal regardless as a starting point or the amount of recomposition required.

Looking back there were many mistakes I made last year that I have already corrected in my growth and in my practice moving forward and I'm really most proud of those corrections I've made to my 'package' in the offstage game.

Just starting this lifestyle has required some re-training and re-learning of habits and daily life that I never expected in the beginning. Which makes sense, because I can't expect different outcomes from the same or similar patterns. Exceptional goals require exceptional habits and for me the process wasn't like a light-switch, on or off, there was a sort of ebb and flow and consistency increase that had to happen for certain things to stick. A frequency I needed to tune into and literally create for myself.

Tuning into my own strength frequency looks like: showing up with intensity and dedication. Becoming more coachable and responding to feedback. Listening to my body honestly and intently and holding myself accountable. Turning goals into action items. Improving my adherence to the plan. Gathering data to drive my next steps and, in all sense of the word following through with the motion. Maintaining the momentum.

The show I did in May was a goal that I can say I checked off the list, but now I don't just want to show up I want to create and curate a package I can be proud of.

I jumped into things likely far too quickly - my eager little ego wanted the shiny, sparkly suit and the heels and the stage all at once. In hindsight I would have done things differently. I would have taken more time to learn the sport, the criteria, the build etc. I would have hit smaller goals first. But my eyes like the big prize.

So now is a good time to harness that energy and put it to work.

Maintaining momentum.